Psychological murder can take many forms but the type I’m really referring to is of a covertly narcissistic and/or sociopathic nature. It may be too difficult for some people to be able to comprehend but it does happen and I’ve seen it happen.
No evidence of it is left behind and no-one has ever been convicted of it yet in reality, what I will term pernicious abuse is something which can and does have a devastating effect, not just on the victim, but also within society. Pernicious abuse can lead a person into carrying out acts such as covert psychological murder, or perhaps even covert psychological manslaughter – something which is very real, insidious in nature but unfortunately unrecognized and virtually unquestioned.
Spewed from the mouth of a Sociopathic Narcisisst who revels in, who bathes in the warm, sick thrill of torturing their dumped and nearly discarded victim.
“What are you? You aren’t anything”
“God knows you’re only a parasite on my back”
“You look like a wad of chewed up gum”
These particular bon mots were issued forth from the bowels of a hellish fiend who repays someone who loved him with the most vicious of attacks.
Instead of letting his victim flee while they had their sanity and sense of self, they wait and wait and wait until the victim is spent and vulnerable so they can kick them down and out in the most exquisitely awful fashion.
The absolute carnage that a true Narcissist inflicts is about as soul crushing and mind shattering as the worst physical abuse.
The pain it sears inside one’s heart is the by careful design.
When the mask drops and the Narcissist and their gaslighting are rebuffed, their machinations are intensified.
Even a technique such as grey rock to remain still and uninteresting can even create a rise out the most fervent of Narcissists.
If they are bent on punishing you for DARING to love them while only being a fragile, fallible and puny human yourself, well you will have hell to pay.
And a great pity if you live with them. And if you do live with them if will usually be this nightmare where you have no one else to turn to.
In spite of wanting to beat a fast retreat, they ingeniously create a Gordian Knot where they enjoy gaslighting the absolute fuck out of you while telling you to leave them.
But try as you might, the complete exhaustion of their nonstop verbal tirades and funhouse mirror they constantly confront you with to show you how FAT, UGLY, DUMB, WORTHLESS, PATHETIC, CREEPY, WEIRD, STUPID, DUMB, BORING AND AWFUL wears you down.
The Narcissists DO have their moments when they find you to be a true grey rock. A true stone that they can’t get any more blood from.
When they realize that they have the power to quickly ruin you, to make you homeless or tossed off into a worse situation, they will delight in this.
Surreptitiously causing you further harm and sending you careening down the social ladder to visions of skidrow thrills them no end.
They muse about how they can blithely go on now and live their perfect life. Because they’re not sad empty hollowmen, no it was all your fault.
They were princes and you were dragging them down. They poor things tried to lift you up and put their incrediblyfantasticandamazingtrippingthelightfantastic life on hold so they could hold your head up out of the gutter until finally they couldn’t take anymore.
So they tell themselves and possibly others the boldest of lies about you.
One absolutely MUST recognize this final end stage roaring cyclone before it hits.
T I P S:
Self care on the sly.
You will start out as a rose with the Narcissist and end up looking like a crushed bug when they’re done with you.
- Get sleep, nap, rest, meditate, zen calm every second you aren’t working.
The Narcissist is a master at draining and demanding all your resources. If they can they will get you to pay for them to live in their own house and then kick you out when you’re broke and they’ve their fill of torture.
- Be a squirrel, hide money, act like a fox and figure out every way to make the money.
You are your own Heroine now. You must create your own origin story. Remake your life.
- Put distance between you and the Narcissist/Sociopath. You must make the complete pulling apart of your life with them. That means a fresh start far the fuck away from them.
You’re stuck in a rut and feel worthless. Tell yourself every possible good trait and cool thing about YOU. Love yourself with abandon. Be your champion. Step outside of yourself and conjure up what you would to and tell a person in YOUR situation. Lavish yourself with all the loving and warm thought possible. Feeling protective and loving of yourself should make you feel quaking anger towards the Narcissist and their abuse of you.
- Do this for the rest of your existence. Be kind to yourself.
Yes, it is time to believe in luck. To believe in good fortune that you help scoot along and assist you because you want the magic and all the greatest fortune and luck to guide and fulfill happy dreams and the best life for you to enjoy now.