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24 thoughts on “The Willful Narcissist

  1. Smakintosh, thank you so much for these videos. I am impressed with the Scriptural support for this condition of narcissism.  2 Timothy 3:1-5

  2. Why does every other site say that narcs truly hate themselves? They really don't! Making up this excuse because there must be a reason beyond one's control.

  3. This certainly is shockingly tragic for someone just gathering sticks!

  4. So true about evil being discovered in the little things. After 10 long years of pure turmoil and more tears than any person should ever cry and my free spirit being bottled up, I figured it out in a small moment. Something thats happened so many times before. I came home wanting to talk about the fact that I need him home more and miss him. But he brushed me off and didnt have time for me to hold him up. Then the very next day he wasted an entire hour of my time talking to me about his problems at work and when i tried to encourage him, he got angry and said I do not understand him. Thats when I said hmmmm…. And my research began! Now 10 years of questions have been answered.

  5. i like your videos, but this time you fucked  up. Any man have a right to believe and live by his rules. You can do whatever you want when ever you want if it not violates other people. The book what is writen by so called god(homo sapiens)is writed by human. OMG god is a religen a control mehanisme that is created to control human mind and spirit. Spirit is free and can go in every direction he wants. The more free we become the more enligten we become. The guy who kills(opposite of love, how it can be good, use brains and basic observation) because other man  gather those wood on man named bad day is evil himself or serves maby unconiesly evil. PERIOD. Love, goodnes never kills, because LOVE is a agent of LOVE. No agent of what is good or bad.

  6. Maybe I am bad and wrong, because I think that if a law, religious or civil, seems harmful or pointless to me I will   defy it.Many laws are just plain wrong like slavery for instance. These laws offend my conscience so I openly rebel. To do other wise would offend my conscience. People who blindly obey harmful laws are the problem, not the conscientious objectors imho.

  7. Loved this video on WILLFULNESS! Thank you so much….

  8. What I think is….willfullness.

  9. Now that is a good insight into just what sinning willfully is which had me confused too.
    I love how God's word and Spirit are a never ending source of freedom as we all continue to dig deeper. Thank you for your work.

  10. This may be a silly question but does anyone know a narc who has repented and made genuine efforts to change?

  11. Most narcissists are damaged severely, so severely that they pull inside themselves and care not for any one else. The sad thing in it is that they can never change. I was damaged by my narcissistic parents and am no contact. I can heal. How sad that narcissists are stuck in their perceived reality and nothing can be done to change them, no amount of counseling or prescribed drugs can help. There is no help for them. Today I have a compassionate understanding of the plight that caused their spiritual malformation.

  12. Carl Jung Quote :
    Understanding does not cure evil, but it is a definite help,in as much as one can cope with a comprehensible darkness.

  13. Didn't somebody once say ; " Let him without sin cast the first stone"? Wasn't this person badgered by the very pharisees insisting you cannot heal on the sabath without risk of offending the law of Moses etc (and maybe being put to death which happened too ) . But he healed on the sabath anyway .These people, the priests, whose hatred fuelled the move to crucify this man – with Pontius Pilate enabling their hatred rather than taking a courageous stand against the injustice were, above all else – sticklers for the letter of "the law" . This was their power base which they would (and did) kill to defend against the one who brought a total challenge to this way of thinking , summed up perhaps in the words of the two commandments HE gave – almost anti-commandments – to love the Lord your God with all of you and your fellow man as yourself.

  14. Didn't somebody once say ; " Let him without sin cast the first stone"? Wasn't this person badgered by the very pharisees insisting you cannot heal on the sabath without risk of offending the law of Moses etc (and maybe being put to death which happened too ) . But he healed on the sabath anyway .The very people whose hatred fuelled the move to crucify this man – with Pontius Pilate enabling their hatred rather than taking a courageous stand against the injustice were, above all else – sticklers for the letter of "the law" . This was their power base which they would (and did) kill to defend against the one who brought a total challenge to this way of thinking , summed up perhaps in the words of the two commandments HE gave – almost anti-commandments – to love the Lord your God with all of you and your fellow man as yourself.

  15. Thank you for aspiring message once again, Smakintosh. I thank GOD for the conscience and morality living in me, since without it I could be a willful dictator due to a very strong will or rather a will that can be directed and dedicated. It's really nasty, how these narcs try to denigrate, intimidate, invalidate, and constantly leave you with a feeling of disrespect. Since I stumbled upon your work some months ago, more people have disappeared from my Life… it seems like your work is the crux of the matter, and that it's got a little too HOT for these narcs to stay around – so thank you greatly again, Smakintosh. GOD bless.

  16. Yes! I oftentimes refer to the banality of evil. No one really argues the point but the gullibility and want for no responsibility factor remains. Many seem to look for that one, big thing, as if evil will simply fully manifest. Granted, through gradualism, it actually does. You see it steadily uncloaking today in so many ways. Just about every sort of "leader" now turns out to be a raging narc if you're willing to see it and act upon it. But generally speaking, it is subtle, sneaky, very furtive, testing and pushing boundaries, and doing so in purposefully innocent-looking ways. In a word, evil is cunning, not stupid; perhaps in its effect, such is the case, but NOT by its means to getting what it wants. Great videos.

  17. Here is something I wrote sometime between 1990 and 1994, while I was in the midst of being abused. I originally had God and I have since changed it. I have been writing like this ever since I was a teenager. My heart has always been focused on IEVE, the best I knew how. I would cry out to Him for His help and comfort. He is the strength and the song of my heart. I am alive because of Him. Without Him in my life I would not have a reason to live. He is my everything, my whole life, love, joy, and happiness. 

    The Desire of My Heart

    (It is all about His will not mine.)

    The desire of my heart is to please You,
    IEVE, in all I do.

    It will be You and me, IEVE,
    in that tranquil sea.

    Pour peace and laughter into my soul,
    so others may see You in me.

    Let me have humility in my heart,
    so I can be what You want me to be.

    Let me persevere in all my trials,
    so Your glory may be shown in me.

    Let Your love show in all I do,
    so others may want You
    as much as I want You
    in my heart.

    I wrote the following song, at least ten years back when I lived in Washington State. That was an abusive time too. While I was looking for this in my emails, I came across some emails from a guy that I was trying to develop a relationship with. I even told him he was attacking me like my exes. I keep all my documentations, that I can. It is like a diary. I have a wonderful husband now. He is so loving and caring and protects me from My Narcissistic family members, and their friends.

    Father, I give my all in all,
    Everything that I am.
    You Take me, and Mold me and Make me
    Into what you want me to be,
    The Image of You, The Image of You
    Is all I want to be.

    Be Blessed

  18. While listening to this video, I was reminded of the Word rebellious. And these Scripture verses.                                                                                                             1 Samuel 15:23 King James Version (KJV)
    23 For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the Lord, he hath also rejected thee from being king.      
                            
     1 Samuel 15:22  King James Bible
    And Samuel said, Hath the LORD as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.
    Our Heavenly Father desires obedience. There was no need for the people under King Saul's direction to … 1 Samuel 15:21"But the people took some of the spoil, sheep and oxen, the choicest of the things devoted to destruction, to sacrifice to the LORD your God at Gilgal."    When we deliberately disobey Our Heavenly Father's instruction we are mocking Him and telling Him we do not need you, nor do we love you.  He wants a people who obey Him, because we are told that by obeying Him we are showing Our Love towards Him. Those who don't obey Him are the Goats or the Tares, Those that obey Him are the His Sheep and the Wheat. They are His Children.

    John 14:15-31King James Version (KJV)
    15 If ye love me, keep my commandments.
    16 And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;
    17 Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you.
    18 I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.
    19 Yet a little while, and the world seeth me no more; but ye see me: because I live, ye shall live also.
    20 At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.
    21 He that hath my commandments, and keepeth them, he it is that loveth me: and he that loveth me shall be loved of my Father, and I will love him, and will manifest myself to him.
    22 Judas saith unto him, not Iscariot, Lord, how is it that thou wilt manifest thyself unto us, and not unto the world?
    23 Jesus answered and said unto him, If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him.
    24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.
     
    I had another thought too, while watching this superb video. He has great insight, which allows others to add their thoughts to what he is saying. And so this posting is not any longer, I will be writing about that thought right after I post this.

  19. Yes! It is subtle and insidious.

  20. When I saw what I was dealing with it was not a pretty thing.  Narcs have no regard for anything or anybody but their own entitlement, idolization, and hurting others to the core.  I'm glad I exited from this vile and evil presence.

  21. My mountain of narc-enemies are willful sadist's…you should of seen the looks of delight in their eyes, I wouldn't lie about something like this.

  22. What a great video and topic! I agree 100% with you that malignant narcissists are nothing more than pure evil disguised in humanoid form. They are nothing more than Lucifirean creatures lying, influencing, gasligthing, torturing, and killing God's souls. Fear not, because the truth exposing malignant narcissists is just like a bright light upon them busting the malignant narcissists to oblivion. Isaiah 19:2, Isaiah 5:20,  Isaiah 58:4, Isaiah 54:17, Ecclesiasticus:48.:25, and The Prophecy of Isaias. God Bless You, Light Warrior!

  23. Brilliant!! And, chills up and down my spine…

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