Not my Circus, Not my Monkey

Not my Circus, Not my Monkey

The above go fund me is not mine, it belongs to a great bs free #Narcissist abuse survivor on youtube, Activism of Care. Their latest video made me see that Mr. Pretend Guy has wanted to make sure I am miserable and unhappy once he dumped and devalued me the first time. The narcissists/BPD/Sociopaths NEVER ever want to see us truly as our own people enjoying and living happy lives! GaslightingFrom Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Jump to navigationJump to searchFor other uses, see Gaslight (disambiguation).Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation that seeks to…

Nothing about you is Important – Narcissist / Sociopath / Male BPD

Nothing about you is Important – Narcissist / Sociopath / Male BPD

Nothing about you is Important – Narcissist’s eloquently evil tidbit insult of the century to me. I can almost imagine that being needle pointed as a poison gift from a master villain. N O T H I N G    about     Y O U    is    I M P O R T A N T This from an alcoholic, gambling misogynist. When I was slapped with this attack, I responded in the most tepid manner. Since I didn’t dissolve into tears, Narc didn’t get his pound of flesh. Next…

American Horror Story: Gaslighted “Your life is Worthless” and other positive affirmations from your loving Narcissist Overlord

American Horror Story: Gaslighted “Your life is Worthless” and other positive affirmations from your loving Narcissist Overlord

The Narc stated mockingly that i have been a good girlfriend, but I’m a girlfriend he does not want to ever touch or have a conversation with or live with.     As the Narc’s economic control has only tightened, he is enjoying the double bind he has me in. The sociopath narcissist spends much energy “reminding me” that dating me has been a waste of  nearly a decade for him (we barely saw each other for the 1st 2 years long distance and even then it’s 7 years, but NPD…

Worst Gaslighting Example – Run Away Screaming Top Narcissistic / Sociopath Abuse Red Flag

Worst Gaslighting Example – Run Away Screaming Top Narcissistic / Sociopath Abuse Red Flag

Psychological murder can take many forms but the type I’m really referring to is of a covertly narcissistic and/or sociopathic nature. It may be too difficult for some people to be able to comprehend but it does happen and I’ve seen it happen.   No evidence of it is left behind and no-one has ever been convicted of it yet in reality, what I will term pernicious abuse is something which can and does have a devastating effect, not just on the victim, but also within society. Pernicious abuse can…

What is the POINT of you?

What is the POINT of you?

What is the POINT of you? A particularly gleefully sadistic barb made by PretendGuy. Evilly brilliant abusive attack statement. Puts one on the defensive instantly and dehumanizes at the same time.   The context doesn’t matter, the reply to such a completely despicable question/insult matters even less. But might as well put into context. PretendGuy opines that since I haven’t brought in X amount of dollars recently and since he makes so much money, but must spend it all on himself and his gambling and booze that I must bring in…

You knew it was a Snake when you Picked it up and now its shed its skin & the relationship. Musings as it slithers away to stick its fangs into its next victim.

You knew it was a Snake when you Picked it up and now its shed its skin & the relationship. Musings as it slithers away to stick its fangs into its next victim.

A last dehumanizing volley by the Narcissist it to to negate, discount, minimize, obliterate, nuke into orbit, deny, reject, discard and devalue ALL good times in the relationship. If the dump and discard are dragged out too long and the Narcissist’s prey hangs around too long, especially though no fault of their own, the Narcissist will delight in crushing any good feelings, any lingering warm regard for worthwhile moments in the now crushed relationship. Their loathsome haughtiness is on full display as they sigh at time wasted with you, their…

Perhaps suicide is the Answer for you – The Evil Cold Madness of the Sociopath’s mind.

Perhaps suicide is the Answer for you – The Evil Cold Madness of the Sociopath’s mind.

All of the answers showed there are good and warm people out there who could not conceive of the evilness of Narcissists and Sociopaths. The follow up to this post is that the ex boyfriend continued to pound the victim with nonstop nagging and extreme verbal abuse. Even with rigorous use of the Grey Rock method, the Narcissist/#Sociopath continued to behave in an explosive manner with nonstop insults and abuse. Some of the comments to the victim were telling her she was a train wreck, that the Sociopath found it…

Narcissists and Sociopaths get a boner attacking you when you’re down

Narcissists and Sociopaths get a boner attacking you when you’re down

Mine, my dear Calico,  died today. The sweetest little kitteh who was born with Cerebellar Hypoplasia (occurs when the cerebellum, the part of the brain which controls fine motor skills and coordination, is not completely mature at birth.) I rescued from her from hot shed four years ago. Her condition left her a permanent, albeit wobbly, forever kitten. Even though she was in her own little austistic world, she was happy and a joyful little thing. The maniac alerted me to a “loud wailing sound” this morning. I sleep with earplugs….

The Wrong Kind of Love – Why doesn’t the Narc love you ?

The Wrong Kind of Love – Why doesn’t the Narc love you ?

Still down in a hole with ahole #Pretend Guy. He once again stated how he took pleasure and had a gratifying sense of amusement that I suffered in loving him even the sting after sting of his rejection while stuck economically living under his roof I didn’t bother to counter that a good part of me is fine, a part of me is already so far away from this situation. I loved him truly and he knew that. When I moved to his area,  he ghosted me when I was…

Pretend Guy Redux AKA The Man who Wasn’t EVER There

Pretend Guy Redux AKA The Man who Wasn’t EVER There

Pretend Guy Redux AKA The Man who Wasn’t EVER There  Pretend guy has been gone for several years now, really 6 years if we’re being honest. [Pretend Guy = http://alexandranouri.com/2011/03/13/missing-the-narcissist/ ] But thanks to post financial collapse of USA’s housing market coupled with that dating this fiend long distance, I am still trapped and mired in a soul sucking situation. Back to pretend guy AKA not the real guy, Mr Bizarro. Pretend guy was sweet, a true friend, an easy facade to maintain when your girlfriend lives far afield. Over many painful dissections…

You can’t even do that right, can you ?

You can’t even do that right, can you ?

You can’t even do that right, can you ? The NPD’s favorite quip these days. Doesn’t matter if I fumbled the remote control or some jack off hacked my websites. In their worldview, I am responsible for anything big or little. Part of it is to keep me off balance I imagine. I was thinking that I was handling things well, but it’s really helped to find guidance. I found it on YouTube of all places…..   Watching another one of Scott Bartlett’s YouTube channel ‘Understanding Narcissists’ He has a…

Conversations with Narcissist about settling the estate

Conversations with Narcissist about settling the estate

Context: My grandmother has made me the executor of her will as she is estranged from her own daughter – my narcissistic mother. Both my parents are narcissists. They don’t like that I’m in charge, so go behind my back to talk with the real estate agent etc to get as much money as possible. In this phone-call I tell them to back off and also tell a few truths. They don’t like it obviously – always need to be in charge, always need to be important, always need to…