Not to undermine the pain that Ukranians have faced with Putin’s evil invasion, but I can relate.
Fo rme it’s been a long siege slowly eroding my sense of self and self worth.
After finally recovering fully from 1.4 years of covid long haul after two bouts of covid itself, I have experienced utter hell brought about from the narcissist’s nonstop abuse and screaming fits.
Pets are very sensitive to stress. Covid is also reactivating old illnesses in pets and people. (Note: pets do NOT transmit covid to people, it’s a one way transmission)
The combination of incredible stress resulted in being parted with one of my dearest pets.
I am just barely hanging on stuck in this house with my remaining pet. Who luckily seems oblivious to Narcissist screaming and pounding and threatening every few days.
I stayed here for them, but now see that I should’ve gotten out much sooner.
Like so many others, the pandemic and lockdowns and covid long haul really messed up all the plans I had back in January 2020.
I feel really good health wise inspite of my horrible loss because of the stress and illness that the narcissist brought in here.
The creep knows this and has been doing anything he can to undermine me from bringing in money.
In the last few weeks he has told me he would like to punch me and would be okay doing five years in prison.
He then said he dreams and wants me to end up in a women’s shelter with AA women gang raping and ass raping me.
I saw his most evil side when he stated all these horrible things.
To stop it off he broke thru the door where my remaining pet stays just to terrify me further.
I am so determined to get out of here, but can’t even let him know.
He has already said he will stalk me and contact whomever I date in the future and that he will sue me for my inheritance because he thinks he deserves it.
You know all the pleasure I got out of being his unpaid vet, maid, cook, groundskeeper, and whipping girl should merit a big pay day in his mind.
He cares not that covid relief funds paid for my rent to him, he cares not that I will be getting a bit more to help pay things.
He says he just wants me lying in a ditch or stuck in a women’s shelter.
The whole thing is so deeply scary and depressing and triggering.
A post on reddit’s sub Life After #Narcissism really struck a cord.
He has absolutely terrified me with his demeanor and presence the last several times he has screamed at me, threatened me, turning over tables and breaking down doors.
This fellow poster on reddit aptyl describes how they shapeshift when raging.
“With the first Nex I would feel sometimes a kind of vampiric energy from him that’s hard to explain. It was like I wasn’t in the presence of someone completely human, only the outward appearance of one. I would instinctively keep a physical distance between us. Towards the end of the relationship, things had deteriorated to the point that all we did was fight and his behavior became more and more frightening. When he was gearing up for a fight during that time, I noticed that he would look different, like he wasn’t the same person. I once snuck a photo of him like this and showed it to my sister. She stared at it in surprise and said I was right, he did look like a different person. It was freaky.
During a fight a year into the relationship, my first Nex and I were in my old apartment. I had to leave the room to go to the bathroom and to my dying day I will never forget what happened after. When I came back into the room my Nex was sitting on the couch facing me and he looked completely different. His jaw was enlarged and he suddenly had muscles filling his shirt. He looked like a bulked up version of himself on steriods. And he had yellow snake eyes that glowed.
There was a palpable demonic energy in the room and I thought to myself that that energy must be what victims of serial killers sense before they die. It felt as though a serial killer had walked into the room. I have never experienced a demonic presence before or since but that is exactly what it was. I believe now that I was in the presence of a demon who was temporarily inhabiting my Nex’s body. I believe that evil people’s absence of soul makes them a tempting portal for visitors from other realms. After a few min he looked like himself again but that switch happened so fast that I couldn’t perceive it. I think I am lucky to be alive today.”
Extreme Narcissists are literally DEMONIC at times
I can not even believe I’ve been around this person for so long. I always looked at stories of abuse and wondered how any woman could stay in a situation for so long.
But it’s been one thing after another and it all just snowballs into a hgue amount of time.
I am completely set on looking out for myself now and doing everything I can to be calm, cool, and collected.
Do whatever I need to be alright and live well and in the most youthful and joyful way possible.
As far as I’m concerned I am 25 still and no time was ever wasted on this immensely abusive fiend.
